It’s exhausting trying not to get hurt. Has anyone ever outmaneuvered pain? My life is, at it’s most exciting, tedious. Compared to the real problems that exist in this world, it’s meaningless. Yet I’m still messed up. Still trying to beat the universe at its own flippant game. But I realized something today-I’ll never win. … Continue reading Bleak


make a wish

For the first twenty years of my life I was a completely different person. I’m not sure I’d recognize any bit of my current self in that girl. For the next five years I’d stumble through a puzzle of yes and no, good and bad, coloring grey in to fill the parts that didn’t fit. … Continue reading make a wish

Passers By

As much as I enjoy getting out all of my emotions through the activity of writing, I have to admit it’s terribly difficult sometimes to put feelings into words. Oftentimes I find I need someone else to do it for me. Rarely, through a very drawn out, tear-wrought process I can find the words on … Continue reading Passers By


He stands at the door, it’s partially opened. His fist is poised to knock, but He is uncertain whether the noise or movement of the door would capture the attention of the entranced girl on the bed. So, He pauses. He stares. Taking in all that she is. She has no idea Who He is. … Continue reading Living


I once heard a woman say that we need other people so they can point out things in us we can’t see for ourselves. In this instance she was referring to the church, which is technically just a group of people…so I guess it applies to life overall. Anyway, it was around this time that … Continue reading Quiet


As cliché as new year’s resolutions are, I find myself drawn to the hope of a fresh start. I know nothing is really different…time is just passing by. But that’s not how it feels. It feels okay to write this year off as a learning experience. It feels okay to say, “I came, I saw, … Continue reading Cliche